| hey all you peoples, yeah you! |
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Hey everyone, I just wanted to announced the retirement of this blog. I tend to retire my lj every two years or so it seems and this lj is past its due. This is my third, and I just created a fourth lj that I would like all my friends to add. Yes, that means you ariana, ariana, britt, dansir, rylee, and beckie. Anyone else who is not my friend feel free to add as well.
The new lj is ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) prohibited_art ! The dernier cri neds to be put behind me, it represents a different part of my life. Thanks for sticking with me everyone and I hope to update more:)
Love, love, love you all
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| heaven's gonna burn your eyes, baby |
[31 Mar 2008|02:34pm] |
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Fun weekend break from the college grind. In the Atlanta area visiting friends, Marc and Amelia. Much needed.
I had something to say, but can't really remember. Emiliana Torrini has such an entrancing voice, I feel like taking a nap to it.
I think I will, hopefully dreaming :)
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| the fields of elah |
[18 Mar 2008|12:38am] |
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you know what annoys me? people with those headsets for their cell phones. how you always think they're talkign to themselves like some lunatic, but then you finally see the wire. World would be a better place without those.
I wish people would keep promises. Don't make them if you're not, it really is simple.
The headset thing is more annoying though :P
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| definitely, maybe |
[07 Feb 2008|12:42am] |
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So, I'm pretty much sure of this. I just don't jive with girls my age. I mean, yeah as friends sure, but not as potential relationships. I could go into a litany of reasons, but the gist is just there's no mesh, no spark. The older girls though, I'm falling hard for them as of late. 22, 23 25 year olds. They find me "refreshing" as one told me the other day ;)
I totally think this means I'm going to be the young bachelor stud who fulfills married women's fantasies.
Or more likely, that's my fantasy.
...Dammit !
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| cry, sushimoshi! |
[03 Dec 2007|12:27pm] |
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I'm transforming back into a video game nerd, a healthy one. It's probably the best vice to have, I love it :)
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[12 Nov 2007|08:12pm] |
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"...but the story was the debut of the Tom Cruise movie "Lions for Lambs", which made less than 7 million. It's yet another movie Hollywood has churned out about the Iraq war ("Rendition", "In the Valley of Elah", "The Kingdom") that has failed to find an audience. Um, because, yes, we get it Hollywood, you don't like the war. You liked Clinton. We know. We get it. Enough already. Just go do a rail off some underage model then blow some shit up and cram chicks with big boobs into leather pants. You filthy god damn hippies aren't here to think, just do something cool."
Couldn't have said it better myself, damn Hollywood, and this is coming from a semi-hippie. Sad but true that the bullshit movies are the ones that sell, but hey, Hollywood's too wrapped up at proving a point it almost overwhelms its greed. Almost :P
But ANYWAY, I'm currently picking out my classes for next semester! It's so exciting, I love doing it :P Unless the seats fill up in the next several hours, it looks like an archaelology course coupled with a lab, an intro to sociology, computer literacy(requirement), and a comparative mythology course. AND, hopefully the Asian History course that's currently full if I can charm the professor with my sexy history knowledge, haha. My email to her was impressive, hopefully she responds favorably. I'm especially excited if i get that one because it's such a higher level course with juniors and seniors, it will indeed challenge me. WOOOO, I'm pumped :)
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| back to earth please livejournal |
[04 Nov 2007|10:16pm] |
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Since I've been posting too many positive reviews of my life as of late, I find it only fair to let you know of recent negatives.
I got in my first car wreck couple weeks ago in my friends car driving back from north carolina in georgia. I suppose I was lucky that no one was hurt and the cop did not charge me with anything, yet the financial backlash reared its nasty head as of late. My friend Alexis' policy does not include collision, which means I'm liable for damages inflicted on her vehicle; they were substantial, totalling ballpark figures of 1500-1900. I refuse, on the advice from my parents, to file a claim on my policy, leaving me to pay for it out-of-pocket. I have enough in savings, but would leave me with only about 4000 left. I suppose I win moral points, since I could technically refuse to pay and Alexis couldn't sue me. Yeah, I could never do that, but I hate losing money that I spent so many years saving up.
Anyway, now I have a legitimate reason to get a job next semester, I'm thinking the diner a couple blocks from me. I could rack up there, especially if I picked up graveyard shifts, since they're open 24 hours.
I have some quotes here courtesy of the FSU sidewalk:
"Belief will bring your dreams to life
Peace is possible, born from the strife"
"Hope is born from the womb of remorse and regret"
"Life is a dream, so dream to live."
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[04 Nov 2007|01:37pm] |
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Long day yesterday. 12 hours on the set of the 2008 movie "Recount" starring Kevin Spacey, Denis Leary, Tom Wilkinson, et. al.
I swear I'm having way too much luck as of late. Anyway, I'm a protester in front of the Tallahassee Supreme Court, supposebly I'll be credited when it come out, if they don't cut my scenes! By the way, acting is NOT what it's cracked up to be, they treat you like crap. I felt used :(
I met Kevin Spacey though! :D
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[29 Oct 2007|01:41am] |
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I finally got a ride back to Tampa, hung with the family for the whole weekend. I really needed that, it was a great feeling. Rachel hugged me for 5 minutes without letting go, it was sweet. She approves of Jill, they hit it off well together. My mom was as beautiful as always, and my dad seems to be coming along just fine.
I've also made a rather large commitment that I'm rather excited to get started. I'm committed to two years in the Peace Corps as soon as I'm finished with my undergraduate degree, where I will be teaching children English in a choice of several underdeveloped countries. Finishing the two years and taking a follow up semester of classes will earn me a Master's degree in International Education. It works wonderfully with my dream of teaching in far off, exotic places. I can't wait!
The Tallahassee sunset was beautiful today, bringing to mind the words of Richard Ashcroft, "I let the melody shine, let it cleanse my mind , I feel so free now, now, now..."
:)
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| !kcufdnim |
[06 Oct 2007|10:35pm] |
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Phew, well, hey. So I'm in college.
Despite the independance and all that jazz, I've been through a surreal ringer, my senses bombarded, and my mind expanded. Intellectual conversation and physical bliss abound, yet the kicker is that I know there could be so much more. All this euphoria I've experienced, and the best I know is yet to come.
I was looking into the study abroad program for FSU which I already know is rated #4 in th nation. I am amazed. I talk to a junior whos been there and done that within the program. I am ecstatic. Even though I have about 10 grand saved up from all my resturanting and excess scholarship money, I found out I'm eligible for the Study Abroad Merit Scholarships! It enables me to study abroad pretty much without taking out any loans. I loathe debt, so that's a big deal to me, heh. Anyway, this way, if my plans follow through, I will SA (study abroad) my upcoming summer probably in Australia, then spend an entire semester in Florence, Italy my second year, and possibly round it out with a trip to London! SA is the step I need to take to fulfill that little bit that is missing, the unknown. I want to be thrust into an entirely volatile, and confusing atmosphere, forcing myself to cope and adapt.
Well, in other news, since my birthday is this coming thursday, I am taking a road trip with Alexis up to Wake Forest for an away football game. Football is not the only fun we will be enjoying of course ;) Hah, we will see how this turns out. Wildly random and crazy, I love it. We know people up there to stay with, and are bringing plenty of goodies with us.
And a happy birthday to my sister! I got her an acoustic guitar, trying to foster a good music taste in her :D
Oh, and I'm pretty sure I hallucinated last night, seriously.
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| Alouicious |
[04 Jun 2007|05:48pm] |
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A pretty solid day. Slept in, went to the gym, chilled with my girl at the beach, and about to head out to dinner with my dad.
A very productive, great day :)
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[26 May 2007|02:11am] |
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"The people and friends that we've lost...or dreams that have faded...never forget them."
A simple yet moving quote from a special friend of mine :)
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I love Latin when it is sung, nothing compares in beauty.
BUT in other news, I'm graduated!
FUCKING SWEET.
'nuff said, foo
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[07 May 2007|04:06am] |
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“To exist is to change, to change is to mature, to mature is to go on creating oneself endlessly.”
-Henri Bergson
Onto the next level
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"There is nothing either good or bad,
but thinking makes it so."
All this thinking...I may just stay in tampa. My family affairs still linger and I hate to leave them unresolved. I just don't know what to do, this decision is much tougher than I've thought it was to be.
Well, hey livejournal, how have you been?
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| triforce |
[01 Mar 2007|05:37am] |
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I love staying up late, I must say. Private time, private time. I do not get nearly enough. It is sad though that I must sacrifice my sleep and well-being to get time alone. Although I have been doing my schoolwork at the local bookstore, which is very peaceful. Someitmes I just go there to read. I'll read for hours and hours, forget about the outside world, chat it up with the pretty starbucks girl, and sadden when I hear the chime to signal closing.
On the surface seems pathetic, but oh, it is the most coveted time of the day for me as of late.
She has one of those nose stud piercings. Very adorable.
Time to relax and read and reminisce. The trifecta!
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| two-faceddd!! |
[28 Feb 2007|04:00pm] |
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The Tennessee Center for Policy Research says today that Al Gore, who won an Academy Award last night for his film about global warming and the importance of energy conservation, uses 20 times the national average to power his Nashville mansion. What's more, his use has increased since the release of "An Inconvenient Truth". The Center says:
"Gore’s mansion consumes more electricity every month than the average American household uses in an entire year, according to the Nashville Electric Service (NES). The average household in America consumes 10,656 kilowatt-hours (kWh) per year, according to the Department of Energy. In 2006, Gore devoured nearly 221,000 kWh—more than 20 times the national average. Last August alone, Gore burned through 22,619 kWh—guzzling more than twice the electricity in one month than an average American family uses in an entire year. As a result of his energy consumption, Gore’s average monthly electric bill topped $1,359. Since the release of An Inconvenient Truth, Gore’s energy consumption has increased from an average of 16,200 kWh per month in 2005, to 18,400 kWh per month in 2006. Gore’s extravagant energy use does not stop at his electric bill. Natural gas bills for Gore’s mansion and guest house averaged $1,080 per month last year … In total, Gore paid nearly $30,000 in combined electricity and natural gas bills for his Nashville estate in 2006."
So I'm supposed to live like a raccoon while this tubby fuck drives a go-cart from room to room on his fabulous estate. These dirty god-damn hippies all tell me how awful America is and how great everyone else is, and we should all roll around in the mud like these third world nightmares whose number one export is alien like diseases, meanwhile he's flying back and forth to Caligula-like parties in Beverly Hills on his 20 million-dollar Gulfstream jet. I'm supposed to power my shower with a treadmill, but according to this editorial in the USA Today, Gore can't even be bothered to sign up for "earth friendly" power sources like wind energy, even though the utility companies that service his homes (he has three) in Tennessee and Washington DC offer it as an alternative. I think Ed Begley Jr. is a damn retard, but when he shakes his malnourished fingers at me and says we can all live "green", I at least know that he's speaking from experience, because he truly lives that life. Al Gore is not a scientist or an expert on weather and he's sure as hell not an environmentalist. He might as well tell me he's a Japanese super train that transforms into a tiger.
And I almost started to like you Al Gore. Almost!
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new teen girl squad! never gets old
check it http://www.homestarrunner.com/tgs12.html
not much else to report...lifes been alright, same old, same old
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[21 Jan 2007|10:43pm] |
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sometimes I feel so unable to deal with the most trivial of emotions. take today for example...
I'm so exhausted, not physically, but emotionally.
I tell myself I can skate by the rest of my life in Tampa, until I go off to college. I've come to realize I can't. I'm torn up. Bottled up, I can't even take the simplest of risks. Last year, a year of risks, and it grew to be my most amazing year to date. for some reason I just can't seem to fathom why I have forsaken all of that. when i seldom take that risk, and venture out of this dumbfuck shell, it produces. I have an amazing time. Now tomorrow, I was invited to a dinner for Sami and Monique's b-day. I need to go to this. NEED TO GO. OKAY :)
starting to feel better already. lola ray is always good at uplifting the spirit.
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| holiday update |
[28 Dec 2006|03:36am] |
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so my holiday has not gone too well.
Two grandfather's are terminally ill, one I am terribly close too. He has a couple months at best, no cure. My father is taking it hard, so is my grandmother. I sit here, feeling very uncertain, perhaps scared. Mostly because this is my first imminent death I can remember.
I have been missing certain people and certain routines in my life. It took this concept of the fragility of life slapping me in the face to think...though I am extremely happpy right now, I would never wish to end my life this way. Family aside, I want a love from another. From...sigh, why do I bother, why do I rush? I do know however, I could die content knowing I am loved and I love. My resilience is often wearisome.
I went over and talked to papa joe the other day, acting as if nothing is different. I told im about being accepted into FSU, he told me how hes so proud of me. I then took my dad, granddad, and grandmom out for lunch. A nice place, it was goign well. Grandad was eating and laughing a bit, and then some carolers came in. They began to sing. I will always remember this moment between me and my grandad. He says,"My, those voices sure are beautiful..." and I say, "They sure are..." My grandmother and father begin to cry. My granddad and I look up at them then each other. I saw tears welling up in his eyes.
Yet they did not break
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